My life as of 12 March 2009...

Well, as a befitting counter to my post/views on PROBE 08, fate somehow made me one of the helmsmen ( read "core team" ) of PROBE 09. It left me thinking how ironic life is. You end up being in a place you didnt want to be and realize that its actually not that bad. There is that inevitable bout of laziness culminating in lots of last minute work, but you feel that you've become close with a lot of people in the end, and thats worth the work. I cannot say that I am not feeling sentimental about leaving college, but i feel a need to bond with as many people as is possible. And that coming from a guy who wished he was left alone!
I never actually wanted to be a guy who wasn't in the class top 10 but somehow I was, while in college, and it didnt feel all that bad. Ultimately I realized that I had this big Identity crisis and it was taking the better of me. There were times I decided that Im never going to sing ever; and im singing in college-maybe ill even learn music after B.Tech, u'd never know. Same with people. People I hated once now seem rather nice. But I'm sad that the irony is maintained the other way round. Times change and people change, but I cannot stop caring for the ones I loved, even if they've stopped loving me back.

PS: I'm tripping.....

Love,
Fenrir.